Going To The Water Park

I went to the water park today with my sister. We had heaps of fun, I hadn't been there in years. On our way there we stopped in at Kmart and bought cheapo long sleeved swim shirts and I bought a big ugly hat with a cord that fastens under my chin to wear swimming. I'm at a point where I care way more about not getting sunburned than I do about looking good. But as a result, I did look like I was 12 lol. The hat ended up being the source of lots of jokes between us, like that I'm heading a new trend and she's gonna be laughed out of the water park. "Hatless Ellen", they will call her. Or that when we leave she will look like our grandfather whereas I will actually look younger than I did before we entered thanks to my Great Hat. I know it's kind of lame to write out the you had to be there type of jokes, but they're fun to look back on. And you know, what else is a journal for.

Subject Choices

 I've been really conflicted about which subjects I want to do at university this semester. I had previously been really certain that I was going to do a writing subject about genre fiction that looked really interesting. But the problem is that the majority of my writing practice has been fanfiction. I don't know if I'm good enough yet to commit to a class where i'll be expected to write original fiction with a deadline, then be expected to show it to people. I know that the solution is to practice writing original fiction more, but it's so hard to make myself do that. If I ban myself from writing fanfiction and try to only write original fiction I end up writing drastically less and less often.

I'm fine at coming up with plots, it's the characterisation that I get really stressed out about. Because I have no practice at introducing a character's personality and making the reader like my them, because in fanfiction it is assumed that the reader already knows and likes them, so it's just not a thing you need to think about much. Controlling the pacing of how quickly the reader is supposed to get a sense of who the character is stresses me out.

I don't know, I like the idea of doing a subject where I read a bunch of books and learn about writing, but I'm not sure if I'm ready. I need to decide soon.